Illusions

2:20 PM, Wednesday, June 27, 2007

how to mug for chem ct :)

1) play pokemon pearl from 5 to 10:45
2) watch show from 10:45 to 11:45
3) realise there are more shows and continue watching
4) enjoy comedy night and laugh ur ass off
5) finish watching at 1:30 and realise you have an entire subtopic called entropy which you totally didn't listen/copy notes for
6) freak out for 5 mins then attempt to crash the whole topic
7) finish revising everything at 3:30 and try to sleep
8) wake up at 6:15 feeling like you're on drugs
9) TAKE CHEM CT :)

follow these steps and you'll get an A for chem!! :)

10:03 PM, Thursday, June 21, 2007

seen such deprovement before? wtf lah. 40 pins per game :\

3:40 AM, Monday, June 18, 2007

i realise how fucking deprived i am. i'm like watching downloaded oceans 11 & 12 in the middle of the night. spiderman 2 sometime later. and maybe shrek 1 & 2 when i feel like downloading them. damnit man. deprived right? haven't watched pirates 1 & 2 too. fuck lah. someone pls pls jio me out for movies :( i'm like some stupid mountain tortoise.

6:42 PM, Thursday, June 14, 2007

joy had this vision about me standing alone. hands were just reaching out from the ground grabbing me, pulling me. the Lord stands before me, wanting to free me. but i'm not looking at Him. i'm looking back and the hands. i'm looking back at the world. and with each pull, the resistance is growing weaker. i'm scared. i know the world is pulling me further and further away from God. yet i can do nothing about it. God placed the word "rejection" in my heart. to forget. Lord help me. don't let me burn out. i don't wanna backslide.

i bet no one missed me

2:18 PM, Sunday, June 10, 2007

RAHHHHH. MALAYSIA TILL 14th! Bye Singapore! :(

10:42 PM, Friday, June 08, 2007

ok. i found out how to amuse myself - talk to sarah tan

some exerpts from the retarded convo :)

[quote]
sarah - arms of grace says:
shit cannot accept now,
sarah - arms of grace says:
must wait for the others to finish
[ joshua ] says:
of course lah
[ joshua ] says:
3 each time only
sarah - arms of grace says:
REALLY????
sarah - arms of grace says:
i didnt know that
sarah - arms of grace says:
ok i learn sth new today
[/quote]

[quote]
sarah - arms of grace says:
wtf is ram
[ joshua ] says:
random access memory
sarah - arms of grace says:
omg im a com noob
sarah - arms of grace says:
haha
[ joshua ] says:
(Y)
sarah - arms of grace says:
haha seriously what is random access memory?
[ joshua ] says:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Random_access_memory
sarah - arms of grace says:
hahaha good job i learn alot of things from u today
sarah - arms of grace says:
HAHA
[/quote]

[quote]
[ joshua ] says:
oh is midnight cycling retarded enough?
sarah - arms of grace says:
no thats quite fun
sarah - arms of grace says:
oh i cant cycle
sarah - arms of grace says:
thats retarded
sarah - arms of grace says:
and noob
sarah - arms of grace says:
so u can smile again
[ joshua ] says:
dun wan
[ joshua ] says:
tired of laughing at u
sarah - arms of grace says:
thats not a bad thing
sarah - arms of grace says:
hahaha
sarah - arms of grace says:
all guys not fun meh
sarah - arms of grace says:
can do whatever u like
[ joshua ] says:
like?
sarah - arms of grace says:
like strip poker
sarah - arms of grace says:
or sth
[ joshua ] says:
o.O
[ joshua ] says:
not really fun
sarah - arms of grace says:
COS NO GIRLS!
sarah - arms of grace says:
HAHA
[ joshua ] says:
especially watching GUYs strip
sarah - arms of grace says:
of cos
sarah - arms of grace says:
u'd rather watch girls strip
sarah - arms of grace says:
i think i do
sarah - arms of grace says:
not that im lesbian
sarah - arms of grace says:
hahaha
[ joshua ] says:
^o)
[ joshua ] says:
i'd rather everyone keeps their clothes on
[ joshua ] says:
ok i'm lying
[/quote]

[quote]

sarah - arms of grace says:
*censored animation*
sarah - arms of grace says:
omg that is gross
sarah - arms of grace says:
sry
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
sarah - arms of grace says:
[ joshua ] says:
lol
[ joshua ] says:
the empty posts to hide the picture?
sarah - arms of grace says:
yes
sarah - arms of grace says:
apparently failed.
[ joshua ] says:
LOL
[ joshua ] says:
should try a long post
[ joshua ] says:
like

sarah - arms of grace says:
ok wait i try
[ joshua ] says:
shift + enter
sarah - arms of grace says:

sarah - arms of grace says:
OMG
sarah - arms of grace says:
i really learn new things from u
sarah - arms of grace says:
i've been wanting to do that for a long time
sarah - arms of grace says:
nobody wanted to teach me
sarah - arms of grace says:
yay so cool
sarah - arms of grace says:
!!!!
[/quote]

[quote]
sarah - arms of grace says:
ANW AH LAUU im going to sleep now
sarah - arms of grace says:
rhymes eh
[/quote]

RETARDED!!!! :\
ok i'm still pissed with my comp for restarting just when i was about to finish my 3hrs AOE match.

10:33 PM,

WHERE THE ~~FUCK~~ IS MY PW GROUP :\

not like i care?

9:15 PM,

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http://www.kevan.org/johari?name=kiatwee if anyone would kindly fill it i'd be damn happy
[edit] http://kevan.org/nohari?name=kiatwee [/edit]

7:28 PM,

i really dun feel like blogging anymore. theres so much to write yet it seems like its no longer the best option to tell it all to a wall. no one reads my blog, only random occasional vistors. i might as well keep my thoughts and feelings to myself. blame myself for being anti social. too bad.

i've fallen so much i don't feel like getting up

11:15 AM, Wednesday, June 06, 2007

RAAAAAHHHH. CHALET TILL FRI :) AND I NEED TO SHIT :\

1:41 AM, Tuesday, June 05, 2007

HUMJI SHIT. SO LONG LIAO STILL DUN DARE ASK HER OUT. BOOOO LAH (n)

wheeee. 9 days wasted. 19 more to go :\ damnit lah. nothing gets into my head. Stained Glass Masquerade is still stuck in my head. i totally love that song lah. I SHOULD START STUDYING. STOP PLAYING AOE!!! ARGH!!!

maybe you're not meant for me?

5:32 PM, Saturday, June 02, 2007

this song reduced me to tears. so true for me..

Stained Glass Masquerade - Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Well if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small