9:48 PM, Sunday, April 06, 2008
still can't unlove you. why would i want to?
i still miss the nights we spent together, the stuff we did together. memories still fresh as though it was just yesterday. i wish i could be like you, living as though nothing ever happened. why am i so sentimental? why do i still hope that everything could return to before? how foolish. even if we got together again, would things be the same? walked home from marine parade cc. the longest walk i've ever walked in years. it was a short distance but it took forever. 30+ mins. ALONE. emoed all the way. reminiscing times which would be forever buried in the books of history. the self-pity came back. i remembered i didn't have anyone to spend a lonely night with. blame myself for not appreciating what i had. i was a fool. always was. i thought it was over. i thought i moved on. but it was all a beautiful illusion. i really really miss the past. i hope YOU dont read this. i still love you.
i still miss the nights we spent together, the stuff we did together. memories still fresh as though it was just yesterday. i wish i could be like you, living as though nothing ever happened. why am i so sentimental? why do i still hope that everything could return to before? how foolish. even if we got together again, would things be the same? walked home from marine parade cc. the longest walk i've ever walked in years. it was a short distance but it took forever. 30+ mins. ALONE. emoed all the way. reminiscing times which would be forever buried in the books of history. the self-pity came back. i remembered i didn't have anyone to spend a lonely night with. blame myself for not appreciating what i had. i was a fool. always was. i thought it was over. i thought i moved on. but it was all a beautiful illusion. i really really miss the past. i hope YOU dont read this. i still love you.
